out of the blue or know that its coming?

setting: chair in my room 

song (or noise/movie): love happens 

mood: curious 

is it better to know, to be aware that someone you love is going to die soon or would you rather be caught of guard? 

so you're on this amazing date with the guy of your dreams, all was perfect. you were enchanted and so was he. you genuinely laughed at his jokes cause they were good. he touched your cheeks so gently cause he wanted to know if they could really feel as soft as they looked. you had extra dessert just so you can spend time, that extra few minutes with each other. you know this is it. you feel it in your gut, in the bottom of your heart... it beats crazy. walking towards his car, his hand brushes yours and there it is... the spark. this is the guy you wanna hold hands with. you love him and you know he loves you back. 

a truck driver falls asleep on the wheel and ends whatever dream you had with him. 

the love of your life is in the hospital. he was just diagnosed with a terminally ill disease. you are with him every minute you can possible spare just to make sure that you dont miss a minute. you want to be there for him during this rough patch but the doctors tell you that there is nothing else they can do for him. You trust their experience what they say but at the same time, you hold on to the hope that miracles do happen. you trust that they happen. he fell in love with you didnt he? that right there is proof that miracles exist. you're holding on to that and the possibility of a miracle happening for you. you need him to continue to exist. you're the love of his life. a few months later, after countless doctors tell you that this day was coming, its still more devastating than you can ever imagine. 

is there a "better"? Pam

lessons from across the Pacific

In the philippines, girls have more game than guys. Say what you will, but its true.

Mai tells me that in LA, it appears that guys have more game than girls. Does your success in stringing date after date in the other side of the world have anything to do with the fact that you were born and raised here? i think so =D

Im sorry to say this but, hardly any of the guys have strong game here. Rare is the Filipino who will just ask you out in person. They dont even get your number straight from you. They'll send you a text, and ask you out, arrange a group "thing" ( think Ted Mosby throwing that party for a casual met up with Robin to keep things casual), or even attempt to develop a friendship with you via text or chat first before actually gathering up the courage to ask you out upfrount (months before you even get there). All this is reason enough for girls to think we have game here. Its cause we know we make you nervous.

Every now and then, one will catch us by surprise. Im not talking about a guy asking for my number. Its just a number. Weak. But when a guy you just met, actually asks you for a date, that keeps thing interesting. Shows us you're definitely worth the extra attention. At the least, we know we will be entartained.

A lesson to the dudes in my local scene:

PLEASE! if you think the girl is attractive, and you wanna get to know her, even if you just wanna get in her pants (being honest here), dont be afraid to approach her and say hello. there girls here are polite and friendly. As long as you check your arrogance at the door, come up to us with a nice smile and good vibes, you will most probably get friendly results (provided that boyfriends are non-existent). Lines can be cute and effective but all at your own risk. No cliches.

You have nothing to lose. The worst that can  happen is you get a no. Really.. is that so bad? You didnt know her anway. - PAM